04.17.14
Another little sky painting.   I think I may try acrylics on this surface rather than watercolors and see how that turns out… it’s a little grainy!
Hey, did you know most people on Earth right now have never seen a truly dark night?  Did you know that with some simple changes to the way we direct our city lights we could probably all see the Milky Way clearly every night, even in the middle of the city?  
This is a cause near and dear to my heart.
Learn more at DarkSky.org

04.17.14

Another little sky painting.   I think I may try acrylics on this surface rather than watercolors and see how that turns out… it’s a little grainy!

Hey, did you know most people on Earth right now have never seen a truly dark night?  Did you know that with some simple changes to the way we direct our city lights we could probably all see the Milky Way clearly every night, even in the middle of the city?  

This is a cause near and dear to my heart.

Learn more at DarkSky.org

04.16.14
Liking doing these little circle landscapes!  I have these chunks of poster-board sitting around that’ve got to be used somehow.
Some day are really hard.  I feel like I’m banging my head against the wall just making an inch of progress, or reacting to my own doubts with such flaming shame that I feel like I’m sinking.
Days like today though, even though I don’t feel like the drawing is anything particular to shout on the rooftops about, I have to make myself stop, and I just can’t wait until tomorrow.

04.16.14

Liking doing these little circle landscapes!  I have these chunks of poster-board sitting around that’ve got to be used somehow.

Some day are really hard.  I feel like I’m banging my head against the wall just making an inch of progress, or reacting to my own doubts with such flaming shame that I feel like I’m sinking.

Days like today though, even though I don’t feel like the drawing is anything particular to shout on the rooftops about, I have to make myself stop, and I just can’t wait until tomorrow.

On the Same Page

Remember how a few days ago I mentioned my dear friend and fellow illustrator, Jessica Lee Hildreth?

Well, we’re starting a tumblr for our collaboration project!  We’ll be documenting the progress, process, and mishaps, as well as posting finished work.  It would be so lovely for you to join us over there!

http://jessandhallie.tumblr.com/

04.15.14
Happy tax day!  I’m daydreaming about all things anti-tax related.  I am very antsy to travel and yet feel stuck.  Quite often I want to take what we can in the car and live on the road, especially since we can.

04.15.14

Happy tax day!  I’m daydreaming about all things anti-tax related.  I am very antsy to travel and yet feel stuck.  Quite often I want to take what we can in the car and live on the road, especially since we can.

04.14.14
This is a piece I’m working on using a reference from The Goodwin Project.  I ordinarily don’t work directly from photos that I didn’t take myself, but I’m working on a specific project idea right now and this fits in.
I kind of think the color just as it is has a sweet quality to it… but I’ll probably finish it anyhow.

04.14.14

This is a piece I’m working on using a reference from The Goodwin Project.  I ordinarily don’t work directly from photos that I didn’t take myself, but I’m working on a specific project idea right now and this fits in.

I kind of think the color just as it is has a sweet quality to it… but I’ll probably finish it anyhow.

04.13.14
Remember how I said the scope of the drawings might change?
If I had tried to do color on this today I either would’ve not been able to do my data entry work today, wouldn’t have been able to enjoy lunch with the in-laws (ok, not quite in-laws yet), would stay up way too late, and/or it wouldn’t have been as quality a job as if I just take my time.
The latter is my main concern, so stay tuned for color!

04.13.14

Remember how I said the scope of the drawings might change?

If I had tried to do color on this today I either would’ve not been able to do my data entry work today, wouldn’t have been able to enjoy lunch with the in-laws (ok, not quite in-laws yet), would stay up way too late, and/or it wouldn’t have been as quality a job as if I just take my time.

The latter is my main concern, so stay tuned for color!

04.11.14
Texas in spring!  If you could only see it right now.
I always desire to do landscapes and sky scapes and space scapes… just to span more area in my drawings.  But it’s very laborious to do in a day, and I’m unpracticed.

04.11.14

Texas in spring!  If you could only see it right now.

I always desire to do landscapes and sky scapes and space scapes… just to span more area in my drawings.  But it’s very laborious to do in a day, and I’m unpracticed.

Enough

Hey, I’m going to speak freely here. Lately I’ve been feeling a lot of fear and shame.  

Shame that I am not “where I should be” with art.  Yes, of course my actual skills are not of the utmost perfection, but it’s less about that for me. I’ve been there, but that’s something I’ve more or less surmounted, fortunately.  

Basically I’m ashamed that I haven’t gotten over the things that keep me from putting myself out there more, and honestly the things that keep me from making any money from my art.  Those things are my fears.

I’m afraid to put things out there, because maybe no one will like them or buy them, and then I’ll be a failure and I don’t have a plan B.  Or I won’t end up finding a satisfying niche where I’m valued and hired all over the place.  I’m also afraid of the opposite, where maybe I put things out there and wonderful opportunities - and therefore responsibilities that I am obliged to fulfill - start rolling in.

It is my job, every moment, to try to not have “emotional reactions to my emotions.”  If I start to feel ashamed of being afraid and then angry at that shame and then ashamed of getting angry… then where is there any room for creativity?

It is my job to acknowledge that no matter what gets done or doesn’t get done, at the end of the day I am enough.  Just me.

I’m not saying this to fish for compliments or encouragement, but just to let you guys know that I’m a struggling human, and maybe to have a conversation.